charity, do me justice.

I call this Melancholy.

I took a peek.
And I awoke to seek
That Mary's dreams
were my blanket's seams.

The noise in my head
Broke my holy bed.
The water drops
were confused slops.

And two piece the bread
My thinking head
My swollen eyes
one o' lies.

There is no sense

The Day

Crazy. I almost made a senseless poem. I'm in the mood. But I'm out of time as it is. Had I the liberty, that would be a whole senseless poem about the stuff below:

Nothing much today. I just felt like blogging.

Right now, I'm covering my mask with masking tape. It's just a few days left and I'm barely done. Sigh. I wish I was more productive. I don't have the inspiration. Sigh some more.

I fell asleep quite early last night. I mostly got bored waiting for my computer to load that I fell asleep. I woke up at around one and decided to call it a night. Anyway, I didn't have much to do.

Nothing new really happened today. The usual drama. The usual work. The usual shit. The usual. Chinese and Social Science made me worry much though. I feel so stupid and useless, but I'm happy.

Anyway. I amazed myself with the Prod Balcony. And when there was nothing left to do, I let the blood fall into my head to give me some life. No, I'm not sick. But thanks for the concern. That's a dose of the happiness pill for the day.

I need some coffee though. And I took one from the cafe. Quoting Allen too: "It tastes like sex." Not that I've tasted it already. Before finally leaving, I made a few more adjustments, which almost led to my death. (I almost sawed my wrist off.)

"I just need to know if it's possible for two people to stay happy together forever"

And because of that, I'm sort of sad right now. (I got interested, so I watched the dramatic part again.) So let me just finish my taping.

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you’ll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you’ll love me
Love me like you’ll never see me again

-- Alicia Keys (great album! get it.)

please. anywhere but here. please

Scary Thing and Problems

First off: Happy Birthday, Paul! Hahaha.

Well, scary thing just happened to me a while ago. It all goes back to Patayin sa Sindak. Ever since I last watched it, I've been fantasizing of some kind of horror play that makes use of a lot of darkness, lighting effects and moving light curtains (??... i know. don't ask.) What was the play's story about? Bloody Mary.

So what was soo scary. I was thinking about it while doing business last night. Then I was saying the lines na. Bloody mary... bloody mary.... by the time I got to my third, I just remembered: The mirror's behind me. So I quickly finished up and went to bed. Strange thing is I kept hearing mysterious noises while still awake.

The other freakier thing. I was fixing my hair in front of the mirror kanina. I was thinking of the horror play and how to scream. When biglang the lights became dim. FREAKY! Nagulat talaga ako. No cause for that happening naman. Hahahaha.

Anyhow, everything's just going out of hand right now. Deciding whether not I should sell tickets. Thinking about fixing the set. Dealing with dilemmas. Facing problems. Catching up on my failing marks. Thinking about what to do on that day. Sudden bursts of rage from uselessness and helplessness.

However, I found an answer during my Filipino test on Kay Selya.

Nagbabalik mandi't parang hinahanap
dito ang panahong masayang lumipas;
na kung maliligo'y sa tubig aagap,
nang hindi abutin ng tabsing sa dagat.

Deep! Hahaha. I'm still finding a more concrete sign. But I guess the above will do for some of them. *sigh*

I just want'a scream. You know?

Why is my moodie happy? I dunno. Open for interpretation.

a mile in these shoes

Examen, Sleep and Disappointments

How funny. I forgot about examen.

Last Friday, I was awake. Alive and almost kicking. Why? I was behind the P.A. Hihihi!

I was picked out of nowhere. I was just waving at Mr. Perez until he pointed at me and ran out of the workroom, sheet of bond in hand.

I enjoyed. I wasn't as nervous as before. I was able to stand straight. I tried to be not as boring as possible. I think having it in English helped. But I still screwed up a word or two.

This time, I didn't go over the time and not finishing reading it. In fact, there was soooo much spare time since the stories were short. I kept wondering to myself during the absurdly long moments of music. Hahaha.

I hate eyebags. But what can I do? At least I made up for some sleep last night.

I dread seing 3:00 in my watch without the sun shining from the window.

I hate being a lazy obsessive-compulsive. Why can't I just be one or the other?

And the worst part is i'm a nocturnal creature--not someting really bad when it comes to vacation period. But it's really annoying when there are classes and work. Sigh.

Just got pissed off. I really can't stand it.

But what can I do?

Kung pukulin ka ng bato, tanuning mo ang sarili mo ba't di mo sinara ang bintana. Please lang.

love na love si baby

Ramblings from this Week

Grabe! Katatapos lamang ng Patayin sa Sindak si Barbara! Nagmumulto pa rin si Ruth! Hahaha. I can't believe it's done na. At least I can concentrate on my studies more na. LOL.

Wow. I've just rediscovered Camp. I still remember this movie. I really liked it. Hahaha. Reminds me of all the X-Rep days. Haha!

Anyhow, this week has been really long and crazy. I can't remember much... not like I'd want to. It's mostly sabog. Hahaha.

Last Wednesday evening, I was watching Patayin sa Sindak. It got kind of boring so I fell asleep. It's soooo annoying. For one, I didn't finish the show. Second, I woke up at 6am the next day. Third, I had to cram my CLE reflection. Fourth, I forgot my PE uniform. *sigh* But I guess it's a good thing since the reflection turned out fine, varrick lent me his uniform, and I HAD THE BEST SLEEP I've had ever since the start of classes. Woohoo!

FX is getting crazy. Soooo much work. So fun though. And it really makes me happy just to see a part of the set be done. What more if we finish the whole thing already. Hihihi.

ROMEO and JULIET! Wooohoo. I noticed that and Florante at Laura are really beautiful pieces of work. As in, I finally appreciate all the poetic portrayals and beautiful stories. LOL.

Things are going downhill right now. Nothing I can't fix. But the thing is... life is shit and the flush ain't working. The only thing you can do is add perfume. Heehehe.

There's nothing much I can say right now. Hahaha. I've mostly forgotten everything. Is that a good thing?

down to the last...

Greenhills, Shang and Hectic Monday

I am exhausted. It's a good thing I got some sleep. Patayin sa Sindak makes a good wake-up call. LOL.

Anyhow, I'm supposed to have a blog about yesterday. But stupid multiply got it deleted. Damn. So here I go again. Hahaha.

Well. For the third time in a row, I'm not late for Mass! Woohoo. Palakpakan naman diyan! Hahaha. After which, we spent a day in Greenhills. Ate lunch with Mama for no apparent reason, just to spend time with her. Hehehe. Anyhow, I wasn't able to find a wallet. Boo. Hahaha.

Went home right after. Sadly, nagka-black out. *sigh* I just slept through it right after getting bored with Romeo and Juliet. Hahaha. Since by 8, the lights didn't come on yet, my ad decided that we go to Shang. I can just go read my books in Starbucks.

When we got there, we did some errands. ID pic... again. National (where I finally found the mechanical pencil i've been lookinf for for a long time). Dinner at Le Coeur.

While eating though my yaya texted that there was light na. (Tricky. Apparently, the lights went on a few minutes after we left. She just didn't want us to eat at home. Hahaha! )

Before leaving, i told my dad I wanted to get some CDs. Hahaha. So I now have Jennifer Lopez and Rihanna. I'm still thinking if I want Mario. But I'm sure I'm getting Mary J Blige's once it's out. Hahaha.

So yeah. Blah. back at home.

Today was really hectic. Hahaha. Aside from dealing with my disfunctional... hay. I had to go searching for that blue box, cram Science and do whatever. I feel so sabog right now.

During lunch, I've gone to places I shouldn't go to... hahaha. The Lecture Hall and the Bodega. Mark and I also kept looking for Wilson. *sigh* Anyhow. Crazy. Crazy.

Even much more crazy during FX. It's like I've been to the whole school. LOL. Anyhow, it finally turned out smoother, and I can't wait to do my job. Hahaha.

*sigh* I've still got a sack of homework to do.

white lies

Let Your

Hmm. Today was great. Woohoo! Why? For one, Everything was on schedule. Two, I wasn't late! Weee! (You must be thinging: "What a nerd! Talking about organization and punctuality." My reply: "I believe the proper term is OC") Why is that good? Hindi ako sinermon today! Woohoo!

The night before, I told the maid to wake me up at 6:45. And she did. Actually, thrice. But I only woke up when I stared into the clock and finally figured out it said 7:30. Hahaha!

So my dad brought me to CJ's house where Phantom picked us up to bring us to Jolibee. Hahaha! So yeah. Chit-chat chat-chit. A Chinese Laoshi came, and she was soooo kind! Hahaha. Sana she's my laoshi. LOL.

So we rode on over to school where I showed most the Algorithm March. Hahaha. We were about to go to Starbucks until we were halted. Hahaha. We went to the AVR na. We watched Across the Universe.

Ever since Mr. Legs mentioned it, and I read the Juie Taymor book during that memorable FX Night, I've been wanting to see it na. (but not as much as how I wanted to see Juno.) Hahaha. I really liked it. Hahaha. It's kinda heavy though on some parts. Hahaha. Which is good since I like heavy and bad because it was really heavy. Hahaha.

What I really liked about it is that the songs were familiar and really nice. Plus, they were Beatles songs incorporated into a story... which is sort of what I am doing for Bodyworks..... except that I'm using disco songs. Perfect example on how to do it. Hahaha!

Add to that, I got inspiration for my set. Hahaha. Sadly, it might not come alive.

Anyhow, we passed by the H4 corridor to go to the lecture hall.... but the 'gate' to the stairs was closed. So we had to pass underneathe it. Weird new experience. Hahaha!

So we got to the lecture hall... discussing at first. But it got sour... as in REALLY sour. Connect the dots--figuratively and literally. Hahaha! All I know is that I don't know. Wahaha!

After much searching (I found blue, I foound cart-shelves, I found FX stuff---but not the right blue cart-shelves with FX stuff.), I bode farewell and ate lunch. When I finished, the others arrived. When more people came, I had to leave na. Hahaha!

Anyhow, went to tutor. Very sleepy. Got chocolates.

Ate at McDo. The usual.

Went to Yamaha. Grabe, this is the first time I've been here ever since the start of October. Woah. Hahaha. Anyhow, I didn't get rusty... in fact, he checked a piece right away. Hahaha. I can't wait for him to teach me the chords. Hahahaha.

After that, we went to Greenhills. National to get my stuff. And then the grocery. I went to Watson's to get conditioner and soap. Then we went to Ace since I want to start my own dish garden. We eventually didn't buy one. We'll go to farmer's na lang daw. Hahaha!

After, we went to Bridges/Goodwill, and I bought the English comic version of Florante. Hahaha! Then we went to Astrovision and I got: Alicia Keys, Corrine Bailey-Rae and Michael Buble. Kulang na lang ay si Rihanna. Hahaha!

Then home. Hahaha. Bow. Woohoo! On to homework. Hay.

i'm hanging up on you

Report Card, Soc Sci and Patayin sa Sindak si Barbara

Grabe! Woohoo. First honor baby! *does his victory dance* tun-tunnun tun-tunnun! Uh huh! Uh HUH! LOL!

After all that hard work! First honor! Yeah! Hahaha. Here are my grades:

CLE :: 97 OO (from last quarter's 96)
English :: 96 OO (from 97..sayang)
Filipino :: 92 OO (from a 91)
Math :: 97 VV (from a 90) YESSSSSSS!!!! For once, it has the highest score!
Chinese :: 93 VV (from an 88. yeah!)
Science :: 95 OO (from a 97. *sigh*)
Soc Sci :: 94 OO (from a 92. yey!)

I got a pass in Reading Enhancement and an O in advisory. Nakakainis lang talaga si Laoshi at si Mr. Pinlac. Kasi since 1st and 2nd quarter pa, laging V V ang binibigay sa akin. Everything else have spotless O's. So if not for them, I can get a diligence award. *Sigh*

In other news, I have a fugly 0/5 on my Soc Sci check-up. I could've gotten a 1 had I not changed my answer. Anyhow. It's just a check-up. I can still make up for it.

Also, I'm now addicted to Patayin sa Sindak si Barbara. Grabe! Ang ganda. Hahahaha. *ang bulong ni baby, wag iwan ni mommy* Wahaha! It's so sad I only started watching yesterday.

down on skid row.

School and Shang

Anyhow. That's mostly it. I still have some homework to work on. And I am still clueless how I can make triangles and buildings... much less how to deal with them. (Shucks... the movie still has me smiling. Hahaha!)

Today... hmmm. Not much. Mrs. Demegillo isn't so bad now. She's actually funny. Becoming more like Mrs. Lugay except more sarcastic. Hahaha!

As for English class, I just spit out my sonnet. Hahaha. I almost finished it by the end of English ahd I learned the meaning of the word trove right away. (It still makes me wonder how m-w didn't include it in their dictionary) I'm actually getting inspiration from somewhere. And I love it. Hahaha.

Examen was also interesting!

In other news, I dropped dead in bed today. That was around 5 to 5:30. I woke up at around a quarter to nine. Hahaha. That's why I'm still awake. Hahaha!

A day back, I think I've made up for my mistakes last week. Hahaha. I promise. From now on, I'll do better! Hahaha. I really have to take my resolutions more seriously. Hahaha.

What else? Well. I think I did my Filipino orals pretty well. Except for the fact that I was jittering and that I forgot to do my little dance. Hahaha. I think I spoke too fast... although I was really trying to speak fast to be more dynamic. The words just came out wrong with speed. Hahaha!

Saturday was great! Hahaha.

My dad kept trying to wake me up but I just couldn't. So he moved tutor till after lunch.

I woke up for lunch. Went to tutor. Went home. Picked Trisha up from school and went to Shang! Weeee!

It's been a real long time since I've been out so it was a relief to see those escalators again. Hahaha! School has really gotten to me--especially considering feeling like I haven't been in a mall for such a long time when I just went there the Sunday before. Hahaha!

Anyhow, we bought tickets to National Treasure 2. And then we did errands and went around. I also had my picture taken for the passports. I don't like them. Waaa! Hahaha.

So we watched National Treasure. I like it. Hahaha. It was interesting. Hahaha! I love Helen Mirren. Hahaha!

And then we had McDo while bring Trisha home. I love Chicken Nuggets! Weee!

i'm in love with how you feel

Juno

Okay. It's one o'clock in the morning, and it's a school night. But I don't care. Hahaha.

I just finished watching JUNO. Yes, I finally found the movie online. LOL! How was it? Let's just say I still wanna download it.

Grabe. It's beautiful. I've been waiting for this movie to come online ever since Christmas break since I doubt it will ever come to the theaters here. (And if it did, who'd watch with me?) The wait was really worth it. I love the movie. It's now up on my all time faves.

Hahaha. I didn't get much of the comedy 'cause I couldn't bring the volume way up. (or my dad downstairs would wonder why he's listening to a movie.) But I guess it would be great.

The soundtrack was brilliant.... as I had already guessed. I'm gonna buy it if I ever see it in stores... that is, if I see it. (naku... soundtracks.) It was just right for the story. It fit in so well. Hahaha. It was simple yet it was beautiful.

The cinematography, I liked. Hahaha. Galing ng cameraman--but it can be just me and my more modern view of things. LOL. And the directing was great too. I like how there's all of these recurring elements. (like Heroes. lol.)

The acting was great! I loved them all. Hahaha. Ellen Page deserves that Golden Globe nomination. (sadly, she didn't win. waa.) Ang galing din ni Jennifer Garner. Hahaha! And I like the chemistry of Michael Cera with Ellen Page.

The story was... was... beautiful! Haha. (That's the third time I've used that word) Everything just fit in. And it was simple and beautiful and just very... Hahaha! Wow. I really was into the story. I mean. If I took a video of myself, you could see me like in all kinds of facial expressions from kilig to awww to damn to lol to... beautiful! Hahaha.

Watch it! You'll llove it too!

show me how and i will, i'll get out of here

What a

Gee. What a bad way to start the year. LOL. But I can't say I'm not having fun.

Unang linggo pa lang, marami na akong atraso kay Laoshi. Yikes! I fell asleep on our first three meetings. Today naman, I didn't write down the homework since I thought it was just oral. (CHA~AARLES!)

Sadly, I've failed two out of the 4 math quizzes. Waaa! The first one I failed was just "wrong copy." It's just one stroke that made that negative a positive. Waaa!

Our fair booth is turning bad.... little children do not care about Havaianas and Starbucks gift certificates. But it's gon'na turn out right... ... ...hopefully.

On the other hand: Script! Script! Script! I'm so excited for the Bodyworks. I'm beginning to like my job. LOL. I enjoy the old songs and the dances they'll have to do! Hahaha. That's our unique thing. I'm just afraid our topic isn't suitable for children ages 4-7 (or was that grades 4-7?): Marijuana and its effects on the Nervous System. LOL. One other thing: I don't know a thing about the nervous system. Ack!

These past few days, I've been making a lot of paper stuff. It all began because of Mrs. Lugay and her Origami seatwork. So I've been trying to find out how to make a snowflake ever since. Now, I have 2 models. Add to that, the 3D stars, the crown and the people holding hands. LOL!

FX naman, I'm really in prod. Woohoo! Sad for Stacey though... he lost the chance. Had he known we weren't doing Serapio, he could've taken up that offer. But at least I know he really does care for prod. AWWW! Hahaha! Anyhow, I'm so happy with the clown pairing and for Allen getting his role. LOL!

So I've moved department. I'm now on puppets and lights. I find that the set will be quite complicated, so I'll leave that with the cousins... but i'll help of course... I promised eh. Haha! I didn't realy like puppetry before. But since they're not that hard now, I want na. Hahaha!