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The following rant is meant for one person but applies to a lot. What does that mean? One person caused me to write this, but it applies to certain persons/groups.

Alam mo. Wala kang karapatan upang magreklamo. Ano ba ang ginawa mo? WALA. Iyan ang problema: wala kang ginawa. O sige na. Sige na, bossy na kung bossy. Fcuk it. Okay? Wala akong pakialam anuman ang sabihin mo. Sa tingin mo ba natagalan ko ang buong klase noong sabayang pagbigkas kung nagpaapekto ako sa mga sinasabi ninyo?

Alam mo. Hindi ko naman kailangan maging "bossy." Napakadali lang. Ang problema lang dito'y wala kang initiative para magtrabaho. Napakadali lang naman ng pinapagawa ko. Hindi mo naman kailangan magpadalos-dalos pa. Kung hindi kaya's sabihin kaagad. Kung kaya'y gawin AGAD. Huwag mo nang hintaying pagsabihan pa. Iyan ang problema. Hindi mo magawa ang trabaho mo nang walang may pumipilit sa iyo, nang walang nagpapaalala sa iyo, nang sarili lang. Mabuti sana kung sarili mo lang ang maaapekto pero hindi. PANGKATANG GAWAIN. PANGKAT. GRUPO. GRUPO. HINDI ISANG TAO. Kaya kung may dapat gawin, gawin na!

Alam mo. Wala kang karapatang mainis sa akin. Ako ang dapat mainis sa iyo. Kung pagsasabihan mo ako, siguraduhin mong may katuturan. Pwede ba? Kung ayaw mo akong pansinin kahit nakikipagbati na ako, eh di sabihin mo lang para hindi ko na kailangan magpakahirap pa. Madali lang naman. "Putang ina, lumayo ka nga!" Eh di, tapos. Iyon na. Kung sinasara mo ang pinto para riyan, eh di hindi na ako kakatok pa.

Alam mo. Hindi naman ako tanga para isiping inaakala mong apak-apakan lang ako. Alam ko namang tinuturi mo lang akong lamok na humahaging sa tainga mo na kahit anong oras ay pwede mong patayin. Alam kong hindi nakikinig kaya hindi ko na talaga alam kung paano ko kita mapipilit na gawin ang mga kailangan gawin. O sige na. Sige, siya lang ang pinapakinggan mo. Alam ko naman eh. Labas na labas ang pagkakasabi mo. Ang problema lang WALA NAMAN SIYA RITO LAGI DI KAYA WALA SIYANG KAPAL NA MUKHA PARA IPAMUKHA SA IYO NA "HOY! HINDI IKAW ANG PINAG-IIKUTAN NG BUONG SANSINUKOB!" Ibig ba sabihin wala kang gagawin? HA!? HA?!

Alam mo. Wala kang magawang tama at hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko sa iyo. Puro salita. Puro satsat. Puro negatibong satsat. Kailangan ko ng paggawa.

Alam ko. Suliranin ko iyan. Suliranin ko iyan. IKAW ANG SULIRANIN KO.

Kung hindi ka titigil sa kasasatsat mo ng negatibo mong satsat, malilintikan ka sa akin. Buong buhay na kasama kita, LAGI ka na lang ganyan.

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Carlo. Hi! If you're reading this, hey! I'm actually flamed up. Hahaha!
If you think na hindi tayo patas sa activity, I'm ready na. :D Jowk lang.

Wow. Right in the middle of writing this I had a breakdown. I guess the song Adios helped me cool down. Hahaha. LOL. I banged the keyboard.... and there are still stains on the upholstery. Hahaha.

Anyhow, today's mostly been shitty. I know.
I guess Hell Week is just getting to me. I mean, how could I FEEDED so many people with the best chocolate cake?

You know what? That's just the problem. Just the problem.
I can't fix that anymore. 'Coz it would just make me a worse person.
I guess I should just avoid it? But that won't fix the problem... just lessen the agony.

Hey! I'm offering tutoring lessons for the H2s of FX. Weee!
Para hindi kayo bumagsak! :D Approach me lang.

You know what, CJ? I know na why you do it.
It gives you the adrenaline. It reminds you how high you can get. It reminds you how much shit it brings, but how much it's all worth it. It reminds you what it's like being free. It sets you free. It reminds you of everything you're living for. It gives you the strength to live for it. IT GIVES YOU LIFE. Yeah, it's paradoxical. It's true.

Wow. I feel quite proud of the class these last two days. Singing is getting much louder. Even if I am forgetting the lyrics. LOL.

Hahahaha. There's some kind of pattern of repetition here. Haha. Can you figure?
PS. My titles really don't have anything to do with my posts... if you haven't figured that out a couple of months ago. This time, I'm going to complete the whole song. :D
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Sleep, FX, Prod, Chinese and House

s*: 8.4: 8.22 BEWARE! Contagious: Totally Fcuked - Spring Awakening...

Okay. this day has been... ugh... okay, i guess.
It had a few sweet spots... ... ... and a bit of sour ones too. hayz.

Well. woke up.... barely.
It was a good thing i had my alarm... or else.
Let's just say that I have two rules regarding sleep.
1. Wake me up when I tell you to wake me up.
2. Leave me alone if I didn't tell you to.

Btw... sleeping at 2:30 and waking up at 7 is the same as sleeping at 11:30 and waking up at 5.
So, went to FX. And passed time by playing on the piano....
and I can play totally fcuked na! weeee. hahahaha
lem'me just add that i am the worst at the workshop. hihihi.

so yeah. we were looking for pushcarts all around the campus so that it wouldn't be a burden to go carry all those heavy props from the gym to the lecture hall.
even ms.dy noticed us.
after all the looking and asking, I was able to find a trolley sa likod ng lecture hall! weee! so ako yung hindi nahirapan. they all left ahead of me, but left two chairs there.... so sad for them, they carried those chairs. hahaha.

seriously, i forgot to bring extra shirts.
not only was it hot, the manual labor was exhausting.
AND THE DUST AND DIRT OF THE PROPS ruined my white. Hahaha.
Pinahid pa nga ni kim sa shirt ko ang dumi niya sa kamay. hahaha. revenge is SWEET. :))
plus. Pawis na pawis ako all day. hahaha.
But doing prod work makes me happy, kahit anong hirap and stuff.
I dunno why, but I enjoy lugging all the props from one place to another, no matter how heavy (or dirty) they may be.
(no, i'm not being sarcastic.)

anyhow. i left to be sermoned and syit.
cant u just stop? i mean i have enough to deal with in my life.

and then headed to yamaha.
my first since may. woah. hahahaha.
it was satisfying after all the tension i had.

and then i found out i won't be going to national.... naman kasi'eh.
oh see, you bought the wrong size of glue, and now i'm forced to use it.
naman kasi.... tapos di pa ako nakabili ng stapler and other stuff.

so tutor.
my chinese orals are on monday na... so we memorized the two stories given.
damn... y?
btw, i fell asleep.

so the ride home got me thinking how stupid school is. i mean...
by MEMORIZING how Chen Atu mistakes "good morning" with "what's your name", are we able to associate with Chinese businessmen in the future? let alone bargain in divisoria?
by solving the fourth root of x to the 9th power, will i be able to pay the electricity? or find out the price of a discounted shirt from ?
by knowing how NADHP is formed by e- and NADP+, will i be able to toast bread? or maybe prevent getting Dengue?
i mean... hello? can't they teach more practical things like how to say please lower that down so u can bargain with a Chinese trader? or perhaps how to ask someone where the bathroom is in Chinese? or tips on how to add numbers without much brain-use so that we don't have to use a calculator to find out how much P5544545646.65 and P554498498465.36 is? or maybe find percentage better... or even plans on how to save money for a concert?
I mean... WHY MAKE ME MEMORIZE TO FCUKING LONG CHINESE STORIES WHEN YOU CAN HELP ME DO OTHER MORE RELEVANT CHINESE STUFF... ... like improving my accent?
They're teaching us too much unnecessary stuff we won't even use.

well. went home bleh.
i can't wait to move! weee.
everything looks so beautiful... with all the new paint.
and then the floor in my room is so shiny.... oki lang pala na they didn't put tiles... sana nga lang walang scratches ung wood. hahaha. pero okay na rin.
i cant wait to sleep on my new bed. and my new room... now, it has oober daming cabinets and shelves... weee! hahaha.

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